I too want to be waited for, smash the clocks until it’s time for me to come into the night. I want to be picked away like a lily and sheltered under the soft morning light until I can bloom & fill the rooms with my scent and candor. I’ve been so tired, I’ve given away every wish hoping that by the moment I was wish-less I’d be ready for a new life, but I am not ready now, I am broken and emptied, filled with my lovers’ ideals of who i am, yet above all things, i want to be loved for who I am and not for what i could be. I want to be waited for not because I have spent a long time hiding but because I am sacred and cherished like roses growing in the snow. I want to be rubies and gold, I want to be held and caressed with tenderness. I want to be hidden away from the human realm until I am ready to grow and love again. If I am anything at all is hopeful. Hoping I have learned a lesson, hoping I have memorized the story, hoping I will come back home following the breadcrumbs instead of the tears. I want to be forever caught into this dreaming of dreams, a neverending flight of fancy. If there is anything I’d want from this new year is peace. Beauty is never a worry, for beauty is always around, in my house, in the warm loving words I read most frequently from darlings and loved ones but I do want peace. I want to be sheltered from sadness and heartache, and I do know how terribly impossible this is but there is no waste in dreaming and hoping. In the times I have lived, no matter wherever I have been I have loved with heart and soul and this year and forevermore, I too want to be loved like I have loved.
If you’ve been around and are leaving, find the love I never could provide.
If you’ve been around and have left, I loved you in every way I knew how;
If you’ve been around long enough, I love you and thank you ever so for loving me!
Have the most wonderful new year darlings.!